The moon...

I was sitting outside looking up at the moon tonight. It was so very pretty, framed by the branches of the trees in my front yard. Pretty damned amazing, actually. It actually really made me feel small. And by proxy, my problems became small. My life became (if briefly) nothing to worry about. Therapy in the sky, if you will. I think that I will take up meditation again. It was relaxing, I slept better, and it helped organize my thoughts.

It also made me want to dig out my copy of Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance that I never could quite get through and actually read it outside under the huge starry sky. And then read more and more and more. I, however, live in Indiana. This may be a problem come late October. Lol! But I want to read many deep books. Philosophy, Eastern AND Western religion, and etc. Under the sky I saw tonight would be truly the best place for it. Anything is possible under that moon and them stars, even understanding Kierkegaard.

Anything is possible under them stars. It was beautiful. The evening is just cool enough. I wanted to (also) put that (at this point) imaginary book down and dream about the possibilities that Life should bring me. (you know, for my birthday or something...) A perfect wedding to my guy. A perfect proposal before that. A perfect vaca with my family. A way to help my son go to MIT (HIS choice). To truly be the best supportive parent my little boy needs right now. A truly great steak. A perfect fruition of my plans for my future. All of these things seem very close and very possible under that sky.

But then, I have to go inside. That is where all the work I need to do to achieve my goals need to be worked out. I feel slightly overwhelmed... But that is okay. I know I can do it. I can do all the work I need to to get there. I have already started.


But... I really needed tonight to remind me that I can do anything. I need more nights like this to re-energize that drive.

That moon lent me some of it's energy tonight, and now I will sleep well and get through the next act.

GGC