Fall is here...

The leaves are turning and the evenings are getting cooler. I got out my hoodie last week. I am actually enjoying he changes around me. I remember at this time every year, as I grew up, I was planning my Halloween costume and looking forward to having ham and beans with corn bread.

I watch the leaves turn and know that another year is coming to a close. This feeling is bittersweet for me. I look forward to the new year and all the unexpected surprises that come. I also mourn the loss of the old year and all the potential not realized. I want to say that this next year will be different, but I say that every year. I always say that I will meet my goals, I will fulfill my potential to the best of my abilities. But then I end up in October, wondering where the hell the time has gone.

This is MY short coming. I am a procrastinator, and at times, just not that great of a person. I say every year that I will work to change that. And then, the leaves turn. And I look back and see that I have once again put off everything. I see that I am catty and mean and selfish by turns. I like to think that my good acts make up for those short comings... But I dunno.

SO... I am changing the ritual this year. I am starting today to work on my attitude. Work on my time management. Starting with the now. "What time is it? (correct answer is "Now.") Where are you? (correct answer is "Here.") If you see me out and about, ask me those questions. I need the reminder.

And the point of all that is... Maybe next year, I can REALLY enjoy the leaves turning and all the apple cider. Maybe... With a little help from my friends.

GGC