Happiness

So. How are you guys? I am fine. Contemplative. But overall I am... Well... fine.

I have been thinking about the saying "money can't buy happiness." In the literal sence, of course, this is true. BUT (notice the capital letters... that's a BIG but!) money does buy things that make me happy. Or would. You know, if I had the money. Mainly, Security (yes, I capitalized that for a reason...). This is a HUGE deal to me. So that becomes number one on my list. Yes. I made a list. It's kind of what I do. Feel free to add to it if you feel the need.

Things money can buy that would make me happy:
1) Security (in the form of my debts being paid, my own place, etc, etc, etc)
2) John's college paid for. He wants to go to MIT. Robotics engineering. I know that this will probably change a million times over in the next nine years.... But best to be prepared.
3) A newer car with better gas mileage, in better repair, and over all more reliable
4) Coffee out every morning. A simple, fairly inexpensive one, but I miss being able to do this every day.
5) An ipod with all my music loaded on it. I have lots of music. And having it all at my fingertips anywhere... AHHH-MAZZINGG!!!!
6) A tub of Dream Cream and Dream Wash from Lush. Again, an attainable one. But Ellen NEEDS these things to be completely happy... ;P
7) Ben and Jerry's ice cream.
8) Membership to a gym to work off calories from #7.
9) New shoes... Nuff said.
10) New coffee maker... Again, nuff said.
11) Vacations with John and Steve
12) The FREEDOM to know that when I spend money on these things, I am not jeopardizing my future or that of my son.

All that being said... I have redoubled my efforts to get a better job. Instead of 10 apps and resumes put out a week, I put out 20-25. I have asked advice on my interview skills. I have organized my life. Or at least started the process. Wish me luck. Send me good thoughts. Whatever you do, do it! This is the real deal. I will be in a different place in my life soon. It is time to move foreward instead of treading water. It is TIME!